My will to fight

I can hear the battle cries all around me. So many are falling beside me. Will I be next? Should I just put down my sword and succumb under defeat, along with so many others before me who also fainted in their minds? I know I've joined the army, but I never thought I would see so much blood and tears and that it could cost me my life. I'm fearful, I'm tired, I don't know if I can go on...But, oh, I hear my heart beating inside of me reminding me of the true reason why I joined the army. Was it pride? Valor? Even faith? Nay, now I see it clearly. It was Love! My love for you, dear Jesus, that will compel me to the depths of hell if need be. Now I remember your face, your kind eyes and strong arms around me sizzling an energy through me and renewing me for the battle. Your love keeps me going, your passion keeps me fighting, your kisses keep me believing, for You are the source of my strength and will to fight.

(written on March 2006)

I'm alone through this long, dark night
kneeling down with my prayers abright
Can You see me reaching out?
In my heart a pleading shout?

Once again there were rocks ahead
in my fright, I turned and fled
So I'm lying here once more
Can't you hear me knocking at your door?

For as far as the eyes can see
questions are looming over me
Where to go? What to do?
So right now I'm crying out to you

Show me they way, lead me in thy path
for You are the Lord of my life
Turn on the lights so I can see
Reveal Thy will. Come and speak to me

I see the dark clouds moving on
as the wind of your mercy blows
stinging rains that pierce my heart
but it's all the Master's art.

I know soon I will raise my eyes
and the sunshine will grace the skies
and I'll rise to my two feet
facing wind and facing heat

When I look up to Your face
All the pain will be erased
And my heart will say once more
I'm yours, my master and Lord.

(Written on June 2005)

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(Written on July 2006)